Last friday, my parents asked me if I’m free afte… January 14, 2007

Last friday, my parents asked me if I’m free after office to watch the pyro olympics with them. I said yes. So there we were braving the traffic in EDSA just to watch this show. We looked for a place where we can be near the show without paying the entrance (hehehe) and ended up behind the restaurants near the dampa. The place have this stinking smell but then again there were lots of people waiting for the free show. After a few minutes i saw a red light going up into the sky and turned into a huge ball of twinkling lights. The show started. I stood there silently saying my oohhhhsss and aaahhhsss while watching the different colors up in the sky. The loud booms that turns the cars alarms. The fireworks were so facinating and beautiful that I almost forgot where I am at. Suddenly I can’t smell the stinking dampa anymore. Nor the people around me matter anymore. The children who were laughing and cheering became music to my ears.

A song came into my mind, “When i look into your holiness, when i gaze into your loveliness, when all things that surround become shadows in the light of You.” This simple experience taught me how my relationship with Jesus should be. That if/when I focus on Jesus, everything will be blurr and all I can see is His goodness, faithfulness, beauty and love.

It was really a beautiful experience for me, without paying 1,200 pesos. haha.

Moving on and Looking forward to January 3, 2007

Another year just passed. Lots of lessons learned, things to forget…people to forget, moments to look back and things to look forward to.

Before the year ended I’m simply having this “moving-on” mode. I moved on to a new part-time home which is in Makati. I wanna move to a new job. Maybe a new church and get a new name. Yeah I’m thinking of moving to another country too. Maybe Dubai or Florida..wherever. And then my brain just gets too tired thinking how in the world i am gonna do that.

Yes, another year just passed and another year to come. This year I’m looking forward not only to where God will bring me but to how God will work to bring me there. Few months from now I’ll be turning 25 (yuck tanda ko na.) and lately, being with somebody is not a big deal anymore (compared to when I was 18). I’m just excited on what event I am gonna do next. Or who’s wedding will I coordinate.

Even I am in a middle of the so-called quarterlife crisis, little by little I’m learning to stretch my wings and fly without depending on anybody but God. I used to say “tomorrow I will be good.” or “tomorrow I could do this.” Now I humbly say, “bring it on!” God prepared me long enough for this. I guess that’s the reason for these countless projects that I have/had. I’m still afraid of some things (such as monsters) but then again, My God is sufficient for me.

Last year I wasted ALOT of opportunities to grow in my Christian life. This year, I look forward to more opportunities to trust God. Last year, I carelessly gamble the relationships that I have. This year, I’m looking forward to building or restoring more friendship/partnership. This year, I look forward to more creative-crazy ideas…less hesitations and fears (again except monsters. hahaha), more laughter…less drama, more humility and grace…less pride, more encouragement…less complains, more God-glorifying activities and more boys (hahaha!). As one pastor said…”this is the year of the Lord.” I say Amen.